Tears streaming down your face? Yeah, you're not the only one. So i guess that means you're not alone; maybe you're better off being alone than risk having your heart torn apart again. It's all his fault, isn't it? Even though at one point he was your answer to everything. The one who made you feel like the happiest person alive, the one who could make you laugh when you didn't even want to smile, the one you stayed up with for hours on end talking about anything there was to be talked about, the one you could relate every song you listened to, the one you thought was the definition of perfect. Not anymore though.
These days, you mean very little to him. You feel like you don't even matter, and the truth is you probably don't. You've been replaced. and he doesn't give a fuck about your feelings. It hurts doesn't it? He's forgetting about you and there's nothing you can do about it, only move on. Easier said than done. Especially after having some of the best times you've ever had with anyone. You tell yourself to forget about him because he doesn't love you, but there's something inside your heart that keeps you hanging on in the hopes of him loving you again.
The saddest part is realising that he just doesn't feel that way about you. So you watch him make mistakes, very pretty mistakes indeed, you get so unbelievably jealous just because you would give anything to be one of those mistakes. I guess we have no control over who we fall for. Moving on - a slow, painful process. But we get there in the end, with the friends who have been there since day one to help you with everything.
As for him - fuck him. Fuck the tears you've cried over him. Fuck the sleepless nights you've had. Fuck the sad songs you've had on repeat. Fuck everything that reminds you of him. Let go, move on, maybe one day he'll realize the girl he let go. May he be filled with the biggest regret ever.
Love is hard, and at least you can't say you didn't try. After all, moving on doesn't mean you're weak; it means you're strong enough to let go.
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