parents

soo im just chilling here by myself, as per usual. seriously its getting to the point where every single night I'm in my house, by myself. Most people would love that, I there are nights when I do love being alone for some peace and quiet. but not every night, sometimes I'd like to feel like I live with someone fs.

my mum and dad go out every night, but not together. they go out, get drunk, come home, fight and scream, annoy me, and repeat. without a doubt at least 3 times a week, everynight sometimes. It's really sad, the only time I feel like I actually see them are when they're drunk! I find it hilarious when people go "hate drunk parents fs" after they randomly spend a night out, but its something I have all the time.

It's not exactly fun being woken up at 2am by screaming parents who throw glasses at each other, then having to get them both to bed and most like get insulted in the process and the next day I have to pretend it never happened! yay -.-

thats on a good night, if they come home... weekends are actually better than weekdays. sometimes my mum stays in :o weird like.

my mum and dad don't know anything about me. like anything. they wouldnt be able to answer a question about me, and sometimes they put me down, especially my mum.

"Should you really be eating that?"
"Size 6, you should fit into that!" Tshirts, serious? My jebs would not fit in size 6.
"You got skinny jeans? Why? You have to be skinny to wear them."
"Oh my god look at the size of your legs, its not nice."

There's just a few, all on the same subject. Sometimes she varies her topics and concentrates on other aspects, but it still hurts. A lot. A mum is supposed to see you perfect in every way, yet mine puts me down all the time? If my mum can't accept me, how am I supposed to?

I remember one time I was sitting in my room crying, completely breaking down, and my mum walked in. I was so embarrased. She said "are you crying?" even though it was so obvious and then she was like "what's wrong?" and I said "nothing" and she was like "oh okay then I'm going out."

and that was that. bye mum, love you too. to be honest, i do love my mum. She's hilarious and I know she's been hurt, but we just don't have a close relationship, nor do I have one with my dad. They both drink too much, I'd even go as far to say they have a problem. But there's nothing I can do to change that, I've tried, and each time it seems like they pick alcohol over me. but everyones family works differently, and thats just how mine does.