friendship

i just wanna put this out there. there is nothing more important to me than friendship.

guys come and go, but friendship should be something that never leaves. And it's probably one of the most depressing things in life when it does leave, when someone decides you're no longer worth it. And it hurts, more than you'd expect it too.

my best friend was someone I knew since I was 8, and she was the best friend I had up till then. We had the best memories I have ever had and they are something i'm going to treasure for all my life, because she was special to me.

we grew up and went to different schools, but we never necessarily grew apart. we had different friends and different interests, but it never changed the laughs we could have together, because that's just who we were. I know what my best best best time with her ever was, and it was a holiday that is going right up there as the best time of my life for many reasons, and I wanna thank her for contributing to that.

then a boy came into it, and for some strange reason I was pushed out. And i have no idea why. I had nothing whatsoever against him, she was my best friend of course I wa unbelievably happy that she got a boyfriend, I thought it was adorable and was all proud of her and couldn't wait to get all the details she was going to give me, cos that's what best friends do.

i couldn't have been more wrong. i was just ignored, basically. just completely pushed out of the picture for no reason. He hated me for some reason, even thought I was totally for them, and that was that. She hated me too. And it's been that way since. I've tried to change it but it so hard being the only one fighting and it hurts so fucking much to be pushed put of someone's life who you thought would always be there, so i cried and cried and cried some more because i felt like everything was falling apart without my best friend. but im not going to be a bad person because of it, and im not going to let it ruin me. I still love her to pieces and will never forget all my memories with her, and i do wish her the best of luck in the future, even if the sad and depresing truth is that im not going to be in it.

but its okay. because i have 9 other best friends in my life who are unbelievale and so different from each other that i couldnt ask for anyting else. I love every one of them to pieces for different reasons, and they have got me through a lot more than they know of, and they probably wont ever know how much they've done for me cos that'll mean me admitting how bad things got. i cant even begin to describe how amazing they are but i probably will at some point.

so i think friendship is the most important thing in life. Who's going to hug away your broken hearts? Who's going to laugh at jokes noone else finds funny? Who are you going to share details of your guy drama with? you NEED best friends, at least i do, becaue I can honestly say that I'd be nothing without them.